I laughed as I read my last entry, because the motto of "Just keep studying" is truth. That's pretty much all I did until December. The last 2.5 months of school were HARD. I finished the semester well, but my brain was just numb from it all. One semester down!
To date, I continue to believe that PA school is the best thing I've ever done. I love (sometimes hate) the immense challenge it requires of me. It pushes me in ways I would never push myself. The experience is incredibly humbling. I stand on the shoulders of giants in medicine, and remain amazed at all they have done. I can only pray that I will contribute even a fraction of what they did to healthcare.
Next semester is two weeks away, and it's bittersweet. I'm so excited to resume my passion. But oh, do I cry at the knowledge that I will miss my sweetest little friend immensely. Our time together during the break has brought such joy to both of us. I am so proud of who she is, and I am so honored to be her momma. Prior to her, I was unsure if I would truly enjoy being a mother; I couldn't fathom the depths of love that come with having a child. Now I know that being a mommy is the greatest privilege I've ever known.
I'm praying that next semester will be better than the last for several reasons. Now that I'm conditioned to intense studying, I'm determined to make more time in the day for my family. Taking breaks are vital to everyone's health. I also need to seek the joy in the mundane that comes with constant studying. It's not necessarily my nature to look for joy in the moment. But when I do step back, I'm consistently amazed at the privilege and opportunity that is before me. I also hope to blog more. This program is zooming by, and I want to capture as much of it as I can.
